Just Another Day…
At work today, I waited on a table with a grandmother, a grandfather and their grandaughter. The grandfather had Alsheimers, a condition that I was familiar with, but had never seen in a person. And it seemed…As if he were a child, asking for more wine constantly, raising his voice when he didn’t get his way. We watered down the wine to keep him from getting terribly drunk, as the grandmother requested. Eventually, we discovered that we could “fool” him into thinking he was drinking wine by giving him grenedine mixed with sprite and water (It looked like wine, but was nonalcoholic). He had some sense; after his wife went to take their grandaughter to school real quick he was sneaking three glasses of “wine” in a hurry so that she wouldn’t notice. He could also read the time to his wife, whose eyes weren’t doing so well. But in the end…It was hard to tell what was wrong, but something was wrong.
I felt a brief sense of pity, and a deeper sense of fear at what I saw. What will happen when I’m sixty? Seventy? Assuming I live that long, will my back hemmorrage and degenerate like my father, one of the strongest people I knew until his back gave out on him? Will I be a burden to my family, mumbling for more wine with a half-full glass in my hand? I can’t be certain…But rivalling my fear of death is a fear of losing my mind, my capacity for reason. It’s a stupid, futile thing to worry about, I guess…Heh, I suppose most people would rather not have their minds slip away, either. But I won’t sleep as well tonight, I think.
It’s raining outside; I guess I like the rain because there’s a sort of romantic notion in the whole stormy weather thing. Cloudy skies, the gentle caress of wind, the gentle cacophony of rain, the crackle of lightning that illuminates the sky and the thunder that fills the air in a roaring din. Call me a pussy, but I’m a sucker for snuggling and watching a thunderstorm. But after you call me a pussy, remember that I am what I eat. ~.^ And I’m a starving, starving kitty. ;-;
As for Magic: the Gathering, I’m working this Friday. So, more money for me. =D
Current Otaku Bling-Blingage: $81.29
And rising! ^-^;;










